It's approximately 1 AM and I'm awake because I'm saaaaad. Well, I'd probably be awake anyway, but we can ignore that.
I like to think I'm generally quite a positive person, but today I have been Certifiably Bummed out and I'm getting rather bored by it. I know emotions don't just turn off once you're done feeling them (that's probably a good thing, really, because the world would be filled with serial killers otherwise) but still. I found a really cool artist on Pinterest and looked at their portfolio, and it got me very inspired but then that immediately twisted into existential thoughts about my work and self-worth and how much I can hope to grow blah blah blah. Again, I know I should let myself feel my feelings, but I find sadness A. uncomfortable and B. really dull. Nothing's fun! It's shit!! I want to go back to normal now!!
Anyway, as a way of distracting myself, I've been researching the idea of dyeing my hair. I've been thinking about it for a while, actually, but never got around to it because I found the idea really intimidating and I never had the energy. Both of those obstacles are still very much still present, I'm just ignoring them for the sake of funsies. I'm not really sure which colour I'd like to go for... I always think pastel pink with brown roots looks super cute, but maybe a blue? Or a green? How dare the colour wheel be as expansive as it is.